holy stressed. like seriously stressed. not like oh no i have an exam tomorrow and i didn't study enough so i might not do that well. no no no...

stressed like i have 3 group projects to complete within the next week and a half, including 2 presentations, two 5 page papers and one 12 page paper, and conducting a survey at local restaurants. i LOVE group projects. especially since the people involved in them refuse to communicate in any way and also don't go to class, so there is absolutely no way of getting in touch with them. it makes for a really great project that's for sure. man, stressed overall about school in general.

stressed like i haven't been home for more than 3 days in the entire month of november. in and out, in and out. ny, chicago, fl, chicago, columbus. in and out, in and out. it's like sex, only much crappier. except for the ny part of it. which may or may not have involved real sex which definitely wasn't crappy. plus i HATE leaving Brewer at home by himself :( especially over this past weekend, when no one was home at all. poor kitten. he probably hates his mommy now. i'm such a bad person.

stressed like i am beginning to get really nervous that i was overconfident in my ideas that i am going to get an offer from Centex. they said we are supposed to hear by dec. 1 either way, and i know that's another 4 days, but it seems like an eternity. i really really want this offer. it would make everything so much better right now. and it would be the 2nd best Christmas present this year for sure, because i already know i got the 1st best Christmas present. but anyway, i am so nervous that i'm going to get screwed and then i'll be nervous that none of the other offers are going to come through...which brings me to:

stressed like i have to go to chicago for LaSalle Bank's interview tomorrow, the actual interview is Tuesday. and columbus, OH on Friday for an interview with Rockbridge Capital. wonderful. i know i won't work for LaSalle, and i would take Rockbridge as a 2nd choice...but i just really don't want to have to leave again! and i have to drive to both and now the weather is crappy, which just plain fucking SUCKS. not because i can't drive in the weather, but because other people are incapable of it and that hinders my ability to negotiate the road around them. fucking soccer moms.

stressed like i feel like i've been spending all my money and not making any. and Christmastime is coming up and i have to buy so many gifts...i only have one little thing for my Mom and my gift for my little niece. that leaves the rest of my Mom's present, Joe's, friends, and Brewer, and probably one or two other people that i'm not forgetting, but don't need to mention by name. that's a lot. and not to mention i have zero time between now and Christmas to actually do this shopping. hello internet and EXTRA FEES FOR SHIPPING!!!!

apparently, i'm stressed overall. and apparently my blog has turned into nothing but a place for me to fucking whine and bitch. which i hate. i don't like to whine and bitch. it's stupid and pointless. but i guess i just think that it's even more stupid and pointless to whine and bitch to my friends and/or family in person, so if i do it here people can choose to read it or not to, and i don't have to waste precious social time being pissed off. instead i waste precious homework time...

i'll continue to point out that there are a few things that are stress relievers and not stress causers...or at least not yet: Brewer, my pride and joy :) , my recent trip to Disneyworld, good friends being there for me, my Mommy (who did a very good job of not being negative about anything this weekend, which is sometimes hard for her not to knock me down for something or other), my comfy bed, and the incredible spark that's lighting up my life right now...streaming down in the form of beautiful rays of sunshine...until the eclipse that happens about 2 months from now. but until then, it's constant perfect amazing summer.