i guess i'll do a little better job of updating this little thing. it seems that people do actually read it, though they rudely decide not to comment at all :) i'm not sure i have too much to say, but i just felt like babbling a little bit.

the fishing trip was a total blast. it was a beautiful day to be off work and out on the lake. we started the day chillin in a park by the harbor and then took off on the boats about noon. i ended up with my area manager, Steve, my recruiter, Jim, and a couple other field managers. it was really fun. we told a lot of jokes and talked philosophy a little bit and enjoyed the sun and some sandwiches. we each caught a fish and i caught the biggest one on our boat!!! it was a hefty little salmon :) and now he's all hacked up in my freezer, ready for me to eat!!! i was pretty excited i ended up with so much fish because i love it so much. so after we got back around 5 off the water, everyone else was sufficiently drunk and we watched the swim in the weeds and act like wieners for a while. then a few of us went to dinner at Joe's Crab Shack. that place is freakin awesome!!! i will definitely be frequenting that restaurant very often because i love seafood so much and that's pretty much all they have!!! i want to try everything on the menu!!! so after a nice dinner, Steve took me home and i put aloe on my sunburned back, which is quite a production when you live alone, and went to bed. a whole day in the sun like that wipes you out!!! what a great day though. i'm so lucky to work for Centex!!!

for the rest of the weekend i pretty much stayed inside my air conditioned apartment and watched tv or slept. i took a lot of naps this weekend to catch up on sleep and played with Brewer and just did nothing. i definitely needed that weekend though because the next couple of months are going to be crazy busy. right now i'm preparing for my big trip to dallas on sunday for two weeks, and i'm starting to get nervous that i'm going to forget stuff or miss a flight or whatever. i'm sure everything will be fine, but all of a sudden it has snuck up on me really quickly and i'm freaking out that i won't have time to get everything in order by friday. i'm going home to see my parents this weekend, and i'll be leaving on sunday right after driving all the way back to illinois, so i have to make sure that everything's all packed up and ready to go for both trips and everything. it's just one of those things that's like i haven't done it before and i'm not exactly sure what i need, but i know i need to be on top of my shit or i'm going to be lost, so of course i'm worried. see? it even makes me babble in run on sentences!!! oh well, i'm sure everything will be fine. i think i'm just going to start making piles and packing tomorrow. i'll start lists too. i live by lists. that will help :) i'm sure after the trip to dallas i'll feel a lot better about the ones to minneapolis and vegas too. this one is just longer, so i need to make sure that i have anything i could possibly need.

man, i'll be so lonely!!! i'm used to having Brewer and constant internet. i'm not sure if my hotel has internet access, but i'm sure hoping that it does. if it doesn't, will you people promise to give me a call once in a while over the next 2 weeks so i don't die of loneliness and boredom??? thank you :) oh, and also...does anyone want to cat sit for a week in september or october? i don't know what i'm going to do with my kittypants yet... :( and i sure don't want to be without him, but he can't come along and he can't stay home alone.

and with that i think i'm going to sign off for tonight. maybe i'll go play with Brewer a little bit. i still have to write Bart for today. maybe if i'm lucky i'll hear from him actually. it's coming up on that time...but i probably shouldn't get my hopes up too much. you never know with the whole war thing going on. i miss him :( oh, and also, i hate the post office because they suck balls at delivering mail.

thank you, and good night.

well, the past couple weeks have been a whirlwind, like usual. it seems to be the pattern of my life for the past couple of months. but i'm ok with that as long as it keeps the time passing quickly!

first of all, i heard from my soldier 4 times last week!!! that's right, count em, FOUR TIMES!!!! once online and 3 times on the phone!!! i nearly peed myself, but i thought that might be a little inappropriate, so i just used the toilet instead. but i was just about that excited!!!! i hadn't heard Bart's voice in 2 months and i cannot explain how horrible that really is. for anyone who has a significant other in their life, just realistically try to imagine it. don't be funny about it like haha i would be happy to not hear from them! trust me, no you wouldn't. not if you love them for real. it was horrible. i mean, we talked online, but it's just not the same. i got to actually hear him say, "i love you, baby," and i got to say it to him. that was the most amazing thing in the whole wide world for me :) luckily it should be happening a little more frequently now, so that will be just great. i'm not going to go into great detail about what we talked about or anything, but i'll just say that we're still planning on moving in together, no one will be able to contact us for about the first month he is home, everyone is welcome to visit once we buy our house, and we're going to adopt a puppy from a shelter :) and also, he's alright but it's not so good over there. so please keep Bart and all of his guys in your thoughs and prayers. thanks :)

next on the agenda is my boss' pool party at his house. wow, what a freakin good time!!! first of all, Steve is so cool and so much fun, such a great boss! so he was bound to throw a great party!! his house is amazingggg too. i couldn't even believe it. he actually drew it when he was in high school and got to build his dream home himself, so that was really cool. his pool is just awesome. it was so nice and warm and pretty you just never wanted to get out!!! so basically, we stayed out there all night!!! then we karaoked :) he has an awesome karaoke setup in his game room in the loft and we all sang and sang and sang our drunk asses off for the rest of the night!!! it was so much fun!!! the people i work with are just so much fun because we can all have a blast at work, but boy we can take it to the limit when we're off work!!! this party was really fun too because all of the wives and girlfriends were there so i got to hang out with girls :) Steve's wife is so funny and really nice and i just adore Eli's girlfriend, Emily. she's such a total sweetheart and a goofball! she's a blast to hang out with. and of course Mike's wife Beth is great too. these Centex people are just a wonderful bunch!!! i'm very thankful for where i'm at and who i get to see on a daily basis :)

at work i'm getting hot and heavy into my pre-prep for my training starting in a couple of weeks. i have a whole bunch of assignments and tests and things to do before i even go to the training in dallas. i have a lot of actual book studying to do, in addition to spending time with our contractors on the job seeing what they do. it's a lot to do, but i'm totally up for it. i'm already learning a lot and i can't wait to learn even more!!! i'm like a little sponge!!!! i can't believe i only have one week left before i go to dallas for 2 weeks. that is just craziness!!! before i know it, august will be all gone and there will only be one month until Bart comes home!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last but not least by any means, is the Sox game yesterday. wow. i really don't even have a good enough adjective to describe that ridiculousness!!! our carpenter contractor took us to the White Sox game yesterday at 1, so not only did we miss work from like 1030 until the end of the day, but we spent the entire afternoon and night getting schnockered. the game was fine, it was baseball, it was boring. and also, the sox lost. who cares about that part??? the after game tailgating was the better part, and by that time, whoa, everyone was waaaaaasted!!! then we went to dinner at this completely amazing restaurant downtown. that was possbily the funniest part of the entire day because we were all a) trashed, b) in shorts and tennis shoes and shit like that when everyone else in the restaurant was literally in a suit c) loud and totally obnoxious d) swearing up a storm and talking about dirty things...the list goes on. the food was delicious though, possibly because it was incredibly expensive. definitely made it really cool that we were there for free! it was a fundinner though, and apparently, it was even my birthday!! my drunkass friends decided that it should be, so i got some free tiramisu and the entire restaurant stared at us while the boys sang happy birthday at the top of their lungs. haha. like i said, ridiculousness!! and then, we all had to endure the maniacal driving skills of Charlie on the way home. wonderful. i think i was more scared for poor Patrick, who decided that it would be a good idea to lay down in the bed of the truck the entire way home from downtown all the way out to Aurora!!!! yeah, he was much too wasted to even feel a thing. haha. i actually decided to stop drinking after one weak drink at dinner, so i had a good 3 hours without drinking to sober up before any driving or anything, so i was good. but wow, those boys never cease to amaze me with how much they can party! although they were all hurtin pretttttyyyy bad today at work.

and we're gonna do it all again tomorrow!!! ilovemyjobilovemyjobilovemyjob... but really, all i care about for tomorrow is that i catch a nice big fish so i can take it home and eat it!!! i don't think i'll really be in the mood to drink a whole lot since it'll be almost 100 degrees outside and i'll be on a boat on lake michigan. i'm not exactly sure if that will agree with my tummy. so i'll probably have a couple and mostly hold off and drink agua. sometimes it's more fun to observe the drunkies :)

well, i do believe that catches up the latest events in the life of Kourtney. i know, it's not really that exciting, but parts are funny at least :) and i'm content with everything. well, with the exception, of course, of Bart being gone. i want him so bad i can hardly stand it! i just have to be patient. what's to come is more than worth the wait :)

again, it's been too long since i have updated. oh well. sorry to any loyal readers out there. let's see, lots of things have been going on since i last wrote.

i spent 4th of july up at some family friends' house. it was pretty fun. just my mom, ellen, steve, peggy, and my uncle bill. and of course peanut the most ridiculous dog ever. they actually had to give her a zanax to drug her to calm her down because she barks like a fucking crazeball when fireworks go off. but that was definitely fun. and i got about a day and a half off between the actual 4th off and no one working on the 3rd, so that was sweet.

then the next weekend i got to talk to my baby for almost a whole day :D i just about died!!! it was one of those super surreal things where i thought i was in a dream. i had gone to bed about midnight on friday night, and when the aim alert went off i thought i was still sleeping!! needless to say, i totally flipped out, sprang out of bed and onto the computer, and spent the entire night and next day talking to him on and off :) it was totally amazing!!!! and it's really amazing what it does for us both. we miss each other so much and when we finally get to talk for a while, it just makes everything in the world right again, like my heart starts beating again. so yeah, good news and bad news from him, but in general, all is well. it sounds like i'll be hearing from him on a much more regular basis and that's the best thing in the world :) oh and also, there was a mention of engagement rings :D haha.

i went to Dana's wedding this weekend and it was a freakin blast. Dana is the daughter of one of my mom's really good friends who she actually grew up with and went to high school with and still hangs out with. through him and all of the other neighborhood kids, i know all of these crazy people who are pretty much my family and very close family friends, so it's always a blast at get togethers like weddings and camping and stuff. the ceremony was very sweet and cute and simple and also short, which was good because it was about 95 outside in the beating down sun. and the reception was ridiculously fun. i got wasted and danced the night away haha. i definitely drank my fair share of quality Wisconsin beer and boogied the night away :) the only negative part of the night was that my ex, Nick, was a total fucking freak weirdo douchebag to me the whole night, and that just annoyed and upset me. we'll see each other forever at shit like this, so i wanted to be able to be friends with him, but i just don't think that will be able to happen now. not sure if it was the new girlfriend or him, but whatever, either way, it was disappointing. however, the cake was not disappointing, and the baked potato skin thingies were really good!!!! man it was fun :) and of course i got to be the little girly girl who gets all happy about the bride and groom and their day and has all the wishful thoughts about her own wedding day someday :) i can't wait! plus i ended up crashing at my uncle bill's house and that was really fun. i don't get to see him too much, so it was cool to spend some time with him and his fiancee.

so work still kicks ass! i just got my own building today and that's frickin sweet. basically i am now in total control of the construction of 4 townhomes. i control the schedule, the inspections, the trades, whether they get paid or not, contacting the homeowners, etc etc etc. it's awesome. i now have actual responsibility, with which comes some kick ass potential bonuses! as soon as the homes close i get the bonuses for all four homes. yay!!! and i also found out that i get to go on a kick ass training program. i was the only person chosen from the entire illinois division to go to "field manager boot camp." i'm so excited!!! i'll spend the second two weeks of august in dallas, tx, training. i'll have classroom training and field training. then i'll come back for a couple weeks and spend the second week of september doing the same thing in minneapolis, mn, then i'll come back again for a couple weeks. then to top it all off i will spend the last week of training and then graduate from the program the first week of october in LAS VEGAS, NV!!!!!! all expenses paid for all of the traveling by Centex Homes!!! i can't wait!!!! i still can't believe they chose me, but it definitely means that they see a lot of potential for a good field manager and they definitely want to keep me around. and with how the market is down right now, it's very good to know that i have absolute job security. the best part about the whole program is that it will take up the next 3 months until Bart gets home on leave :D it will definitely help the time go faster and that is a big selling point...not to mention how i will be automatically promoted and get a raise when i'm done with the training :)

well, i think that just about covers the past couple of weeks. things are definitely good for me. i'm a lucky lady :) now if i could have a fast forward button...