today's econ exam was another testament to how i don't need to bust my ass studying. sweet. i didn't study that much at all and it ended up pretty well i think. not as well as the first one i'm sure, but not bad overall. plus i think the curve is going to kick ass. so good for me.

marketing meeting was kind of fun. we have a lot of fun together. i like my hballers. and i like how we are good at hbullshitting. :)

above all, late night denny's session with jess made my day...day/morning i guess. i'm really glad that we can talk and that she asked me to just go out to get some food and talk. we have so much in common and i swear we could babble and tell stories and joke around for hours and hours. i'm really really glad for it and i hope we get to become good friends. us "military wives" are just so alike :) and we need to support each other too in addition to our boys and our troops!!!

goin to bed smilin...

i tend to neglect my blog a little bit now that i do most of my writing to Bart every day. but it's worth updating everyone else sometimes too. not that anyone really reads this thing anyway...

i still miss Bart like crazy, but he called on thursday night, so that helped. we talked for literally 2 minutes, but who cares, just knowing that he's fine and he called and hearing his voice is all that counts and all i really needed. it's so awesome to hear from him. i love him and i miss him so much and it's really tough without him. i'm lucky because just when i start to get down, he reads my mind and gets in touch with me somehow. possibly a testament to how really in love we are and that we tend to be on the same wavelength. pretty cool. i'm sad that he's gone and he's in a crappy crappy shithole. he sounded ok though, and he's built and trained for this shit. i don't worry about him too much. i just miss him so much that sometimes i go a little crazy. but hearing him say he loves me somehow makes everything right in my world again.

tonight i went over to my friend jessica's apartment to pack up care packages for the troops for SST. i really had a great time. it was pretty fun because we both are in kind of the same situation with deployed boys. so we had a lot to talk about! we traded stories and whatnot about our soldiers and chit chatted and it was a good time. we also got a lot done and packed up i think like 15 boxes. we like to take care of our troops :) it's too bad that i only have another month or so to work with these girls, because i feel like we could've been kick ass friends if we had more time. oh well, actually, the time part doesn't really matter. we'll get to hang out plenty more and that will be fun. plus they are from illinois, and i'll be there anyway. ha. i just like meeting cool new people that i have things in common with. it's nice to know i'm not the only one out there.

this weekend i have been a big pile of shit. stacey informed me that i have something called "senioritis" and suggested i talk to Mike about the cure for it because he's a medic. i don't think he can help. i think my illness is beyond any cure. mostly, i think i'm fucked. but in the long run, actually i win because i already have a jobby job job. wOOt!

guess i better get back to the econ work. it's not going too well so far and my eyeballs are starting to bug out. no good. oh well. i guess i'll have to cram my fucking ass off tomorrow. wonderfullllll...

and also, i got 3rd in our bracket tourney. fuckin kick ass!!! and go george mason. ha.

been havin a baaaaaaaad week to say the least. school is really really stressing me out. i haven't slept. at all. in the past week for sure. my boss asked me how i got the black eye. that's how purple my eyes looked. again, school really really sucks a lot. and i haven't been helping at all because i have a HUGE case of senioritis. at the same time, fuck it, i fucking deserve it after 16 years. luckily the only thing i'm not really stressed per se about is Bart. i don't worry about him anymore. he's too crafty to have to be worried about. i know nothing will happen to him. however, i do miss him so much i feel like my body is going numb some days. i think about him all the time and i just can't wait till i can hear from him. hopefully the bombardment of letters will inspire him to write a page or two.

positive things about the week so far are very few:
-Mike makes me laugh, and thank God i can talk to him a little bit because Afghanistan doesn't suck that much for him quite yet
-Brian also makes me laugh, mostly because he is a ridiculous sex freak. ha.
-chit chatting with Allyn for the first time in foreverrrrrr. glad to hear from him and glad to be able to catch up some more.
-great documentary, Control Room, in strategy on monday
-slap happy early morning akhdar=baydva group meeting today
-my boss, Jim, taking me to this awesome korean restaurant for lunch yesterday

that's about it. look at that. only 6 good things in the whole entire week. and most of them only lasted for a few minutes, all of them less than 1.5 hours. so that's like 8 hours of good in 96 hours over 4 days. wtf. something good needs to come along here very quickly.

and now i have to STUDY INSTEAD OF GOING TO BURGERAMA. add THAT to the list of good things for the week!!!!!!!!!! grr.

i'm missing Bart like crazy out of my mind. he's all i've been able to think about every second of the day. which is usually the case anyway, but at least before i could come home and talk to him. now i can't and so i sit and think some more. i just love him and miss him so much. all i want is a hug and a kiss from my big brave soldier.

school sucks. i'm sick of it and there is too much shit to do for it right now. i'm like thisclose to blowing it all off.

st. patty's day was a blast. bar from 9am till 6pm is a wonderful idea!!! :) i love my friends sooooooooo much!!!! and i also love green beer. and free chipotle burritos. although those two things do not love my digestive system too much...

counting down the days till graduation and starting with centex!!! can't wait. i'm getting everything straightened out with them tomorrow about my compensation package and everything, so that will be good. and i also can't wait to get out of this place and on my own again. just me and the kittypants. :)

alright, back to work. or maybe a catnap...just me and the kittypants...

CI withan ARA (9:19:04 PM): LOVE YOU MORE THAN ALL THE STARS IN THE SKY! <3333

yeah that's one of my favoritest things right now. not only am i lucky enough to have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me, but also his family loves me too. and i get to gain an awesome awesome little sis, very nice and funny little bro, and another little sis who i know is just as awesome as the other but i just don't really know her as well yet. anyway, i hope i get to keep them. at least for now and as long as Bart wants to keep me around :)

this stuff just means the world to me. love and family are my life. i love you all!!!!!

haven't posted in a while. guess i didn't have time or didn't really have anything too interesting to say. not that i usually do...but anyway.

just got back from spring break in the keys. it was so much fun. actually had a really great week with just my parents and me. and my mom didn't drive me crazy, so that's good news. got attacked by a 6 foot iguana. took some pics. got a decent tan. weather was great. saw lots of cute stray kitties. you know, the usual florida fun in the sun :) it was a much needed vacation. and now sadly, back to school.

got to talk to Bart on thursday. nearly crapped my pants when i saw it was him on the phone. soooooooo excited. he's "alive and well" as he puts it. that's all i need to know. i miss him so much. my heart just aches every day knowing that he's gone for so long. it's ok. we're both strong enough for this and will be even stronger after it's over. can't wait :)

got my offer letter from centex. little disappointed. making some phone calls tomorrow for sure. so we'll see what happens with that.

watched jarhead. good movie. and also today, the cutting edge and the cutting edge 2: going for the gold. both excellent. seriously, so cute. it's nice to know that everyone can get together in the end, even if they almost marry some retarded model or something :)

excited for st. patty's day this weekend. definitely going to drink my share of green beer. and have some fun with joshy. so that will be good. then i think i might take a little trip to visit Bart's family the next weekend. we'll see if they'll all be home. either that or maybe i'll go to chicago to start scoping out apartments. either way, i'll probably take 2 of each of those trips before the end of the semester.

hmmmm...i think that just about covers the last week or 2. maybe something interesting will happen this week. probably not...

i used to like a house to myself. i don't anymore. i'm definitely needy right now, and there's no one here to help me. except brewer. and he is doing a good job of being extra cute and cuddly today. but i can't talk with him or anything, and that's really what i need. i'm lonely. and i'm sad.

i am going to florida tomorrow, which is pretty cool. i'm looking forward to the warm weather and getting to wear my adorable new clothes from old navy. i hope i get a nice tan and catch some fish and eat them too. it should be a good trip. i just hope that i don't let myself get me down and ruin it at all. because it's my last spring break, and also because i know Bart wouldn't want me worrying about him and having that ruin my good time in florida. so i'll keep that in mind. but i'll also keep him heavily in mind, because he always is. i love him so much and i miss him so much already. he better be ok and as safe as can be possible in an active war zone. i just hope i hear from him pretty soon with an address and stuff.

my friends and family are cool. i wish i could take them all with me to chicago in may. anyone who wants to make a change and move with me is more than welcome. i think that would be nice.

my cat is a freak. he's laying under my feet under my desk right now. *sigh* such a little weirdo, but i love him sooooooo much. i'm going to miss him a whole lot this week!!!!! but his uncle bill will take good care of him and they will have fun together.

we won the judge's award for our Spartan Spirit project in marketing. fucking sweet!!!! we put so much work into that project and it totally kicked so much ass. we definitely deserve an award. seriously, it was the best project ever in the history of projects. i'm so happy we did well on it because i'll need the good grade for that class...

burgerama last night...wow...total ridiculousness. check out the pics on my website and you'll see what i'm talking about. i was bad news. 2 pitchers and 3 shots in 3 hours will put me under the table every time. ha. that's what happens when school's been stressin you out and your heart goes to Afghanistan.

random random things to say today. oh well. i am random.

well. all my shitty school stuff is pretty much over. thank goodness. because i haven't slept and i've been super cranky and freaked out about this crap all week. i think i managed to do alright too. which is really exciting for me. especially since i'm really not used to doing things this way. i only studied for my midterm on monday for like 5 or 6 hours total, most of those hours just a few hours before the exam itself. definitely not what i usually do, and i think i pretty much aced the exam. sweet. big paper due today, started it on sunday. and by started, i mean googled the subject and started reading some articles. monday, continued to read articles. tuesday night about 10pm, continued to read articles, actually started writing paper. wednesday morning 3:15am, finished paper. 8:30am wednesday, turned in paper. it was a pretty shitty paper, not gonna lie. but honestly, i don't really care. i think it was enough to get me at least a 3.0, and i have one more thing that can bring my grade up too. so hey, fine with me. all in all, successsssssssss!

i've definitely realized i've probably wasted a lot of time overdoing things over the years in school. i don't regret it at all, because i have really learned a lot, grown myself, and done well for myself also. however, at this point, i'm glad to know that i can back off of myself a little bit and still accomplish the same standards. and also, i've realized that this semester really doesn't matter a whole lot in the scheme of things. i'll still do great overall, and my gpa can't possibly drop that much because i have too many credits. and it's not like Centex is going to request a transcript and take back their offer.

yeah, wOOt for me, i got a job!!!! YAYYYYY!!!!! i'm gonna be a field manager with Centex Homes Illinois Division. i'm not exactly sure where i'll be yet, but it will be Chicago suburbs for sure. so excited to be in that area, i love chicago. and so excited to be working for Centex!!! it is such an awesome company and is everything i've wanted since the very beginning of my job search. i wanted Centex so bad, and i got it. and they want me too!!! apparently it was a unanimous decision that they had to have me :) i'm very excited now that i have such a big weight off my shoulders. can't wait to just get done with school and start my awesome career!!! it's going to be great :)

do this thing, i'll really really like you a lot if you do :) http://kevan.org/johari?name=KPoo

also, great weekend last weekend. i absolutely adore Bart's family, and it was wonderful to get to spend some more time with them. and him of course. and mike too. i'm gonna miss those boys so much!!! i'm planning on going out to see Bart's mom and dad a couple times before i move away to chicago. they're so awesome for taking me in! at least i know that i don't have to worry about scary in-laws, IF that ever is the case...

my soldier left today. he's gone for a year. fighting for our country and our freedom. thanks, baby, we all owe you a lot. now stay safe and come home in one piece. i love you.