wow. i am such a piece of shit. what the fuck am i doing with myself.

i'm just going to go crawl under my bed now. and no one can talk me out of it.

i was about to write a nice long blog entry when i realized that i was exhausted. writing an entry when you're as tired as i am is like writing one when you are drunk. which, by the way, i have yet to do. but i feel like in this case, or for me at least, it would just be a big long rambling thing that poured out a million different thoughts and feelings that would all seem out of place the next morning.

so for now, we'll suffice it to say that i have a lot on my mind.

oh, i can at least add one mindless little thing that made me laugh today :)

BrewCityBabe11 (12:02:20 AM): she is really not very cute at all
Feathe131 (12:02:26 AM): not at all
BrewCityBabe11 (12:02:28 AM): i think he toook a step down
Feathe131 (12:02:31 AM): A step?
Feathe131 (12:02:37 AM): a few flights at least
BrewCityBabe11 (12:02:42 AM): LOL
BrewCityBabe11 (12:02:44 AM): thank you
BrewCityBabe11 (12:02:48 AM): that probably made my day
BrewCityBabe11 (12:02:51 AM): and is probably going in my blog

happiest girl in the world.

soon to be followed by saddest.

roughly two weeks left.

complications. lots of them. they really complicate things. needless to say, here i am analyzing again.

tomorrow morning i will wake up and get to see my sweetheart. nothin better in this world.

felt like changing my bloggy. was in a green mood yesterday. maybe i was feeling nostalgic for michigan state. even though it's more pea green than Spartan green. but as carolyn says, i do have a thing for pee.

i also have a thing for snuggling with my sweetie. *sigh* can't get enough of that. what a great weekend. i could reeeeally get used to this.

so excited to see Bart again this weekend. though not looking forward to a long scary drive through scary canadia land with scary french canadian people. i hate avril lavigne. maaaaaybe i'll still get lucky and be able to fly. but i'm already preparing for my pit stop in niagra falls. bill said it was cool. and he tried to convince me that "america junior" wasn't scary. but i'm having a hard time buying it. however, i will try it out if it saves me 2 hours in the car.

aaaaanyway.

i think i did pretty well on my econ test today. score one for me!!! life revelation is taking shape. i definitely have been MORE than a waste of space the past couple weeks. and i'm still doing alright. but we'll see how long that lasts before it blows up in my face. i'm thinking about 2 more days is the limit. then i self destruct. i think the self destruction will come in the form of a horrid grade on my strategy paper, which is due on march 1 and i have definitely not started a thing for. not even one little tidbit of researching. crap. it's ok. i'm not hyperventilating right now. i promise. *fingers crossed*

my whole body is so tense right now i feel just awful. my neck is killing me. i have a horrible cramp on the right side of my lower back that hasn't gone away for 3 days and has ceased to respond to any form of otc pain reliever...why can't my chiropractor make house calls...from wisconsin to michigan??? i have also pretty much stopped sleeping again. what a surprise. here it is 2:47am and i have to get up at 7:15. awesome. and it's too late to take tylenol pm :( what a wreck. it's ok. i'm not hyperventilating right now. i promise. *fingers crossed*

oh, happy late valentine's day. i had a decent one. mostly because the econ exam is over. but also because, even though we're not physically together, i know i have the most wonderful valentine in the entire world.

life's not perfect, but it still feels like it is.

i found $20 on the ground today walking back from class. FUCKING SWEET!!!! that has never happened to me before and i feel like i hit the lottery!!! seriously i don't even know what i am going to do with my new found wealth. i could buy a bottle of irish cream, a case of beer, groceries, go to the bar, buy a new charm for my bracelet, buy something cute to wear for spring break...so many possibilities!!! how exciting!!!

and also, this time tomorrow, there will be a soldier in my bed. YAY! even better than finding $20 on the sidewalk :)

highlight #1 of my day: talkin to my soldier for an hour or so :) *BIG SMILE* never fails to be the highlight of my day actually. i miss the days of talking to him for hours on end so much!!!! that was the best. given the choice, i'd choose bart over sleep every time. but i'll take what i can get now, and it still makes me the happiest girl in the world. even though i feel bad that our silly chattering wasted his trip to the mall...oh well, he can go back.

highlight #2 of my day: chatting with my favorite prof for like 45 minutes about stupid people who make us laugh because they are just so damn stupid. like people who think that the country of iraq speaks english. or that the middle east could invade the us. or that i won't smack them upside the head for saying something fucking stupid.

highlight #3 of my day: i'm cuter than my ex's new girlfriend. hehe. score 1 for me! according to adriane, she has a "bulbous nose." hehe. i promise we're not really evil...

i'm totally sick to my stomach. i'm all hot. nauseous and can't concentrate...for the first time since i got myself into this, i am having a little mini-breakdown. it's not good and i hope it goes away or i figure out a way to change it or deal with it. otherwise i'll never get through this year.

thanks Robert McNamara for ruining my day.

Sashinka14 (11:46:30 PM): (o)(o)
BrewCityBabe11 (11:46:36 PM): lol
BrewCityBabe11 (11:46:37 PM): thank you
Sashinka14 (11:46:44 PM): you're so very welcome.
BrewCityBabe11 (11:46:55 PM): :-) i lovvvveeee youuuuuu
Sashinka14 (11:47:04 PM): I LOVE YOU!!!!!
BrewCityBabe11 (11:47:24 PM): sorry i couldn't hang out more, school is pooping all over me right now :-(
Sashinka14 (11:47:37 PM): it's otay
Sashinka14 (11:47:49 PM): I hate when school poops all over you.
BrewCityBabe11 (11:47:56 PM): seriously, it's the worst
Sashinka14 (11:48:10 PM): I think school needs some immodium AD
BrewCityBabe11 (11:48:17 PM): it definitely does
BrewCityBabe11 (11:48:30 PM): it also needs a swift kick in the teeth
Sashinka14 (11:48:50 PM): ouch.
BrewCityBabe11 (11:49:10 PM): it deserves it. since it already kicked me square in the butt.
Sashinka14 (11:50:32 PM): it kicked you in the butt, THEN pooped on you? I think school has an ass fetish.
BrewCityBabe11 (11:51:28 PM): haha yeah. and that's creepy. so again, it deserves a kick in the teeth for being a freak.
Sashinka14 (11:51:43 PM): yup
Sashinka14 (11:51:48 PM): school is a sick freak.
BrewCityBabe11 (11:51:52 PM): exactly

well, i'm totally freaking out about school this month. i have so much to do for classes, i feel like i'm going to explode. i feel like i am definitely not going to get good grades in all of my classes, namely marketing and econ, possibly strategy, but i can probably pull off strategy since i'm doing the book report for extra. and all of this leads up to me spending this entire weekend, yes, thursday, friday, saturday, AND sunday doing homework and working on projects and papers and whatnot. i'm not very much of a superbowl girl anyway. and i'm having a little fun...doing econ review questions while drinking irish cream...

speaking of, i have gone through an entire bottle in a week. that is not a good sign. i never go through alcohol that quickly. oh but it's so damn good!

and do you know what is not good? spitting. spitting is pet peeve #2 for me. #1 smoking, #2 spitting. i want to fucking flip out every time i am walking somewhere and see a big pile of spit right on the sidewalk. my first reaction is obviously to make sure i don't step in it, and my second reaction is to throw up. fucking gross. is there a reason you can't keep your spit in your mouth? i mean, 90% of people can, so why can't you? what makes your spit so different that it can't be swallowed? HUH???!!!??? ugh. sorry. i know a lot of people who spit and i really try not to let it bother me. and sometimes it doesn't bother me. but sometimes, it just gets on my fucking nerves.

i'm really excited for next weekend. Bart and my parents will be here, so it's going to be really really great. i'm so excited for them to meet each other! and i am really glad that Joe is coming too. it's definitely very important to me. and it will be a fun weekend for sure. including lots of yummy meals, probably some shopping, chit chatting, partying, and probably my mom smoking down with Bill. always a good time. too bad i can't yet because i am a loser and don't have a job :( but it's ok, it's actually a good thing because it occupies my Mommy and will probably give me some time to sneak off and get some genuine Irish cream...wink wink...

p.s. the weather sucks. good thing i'll be in florida a month from now. wOOt.